out of euphoria -

2012-02-03T23:55:00.004+08:00

Curiosity killed the cat.
In relation, curiosity killed trust. Curiosity killed my profound happiness. Curiosity (fucking) killed impression.

If you know me well enough, you should be very aware of my immaculate "stalking" skill. It seems like this skill is quite detrimental. I discovered conversations, raw feelings that are better left unsaid, undiscovered, by yours truly.

As of two months ago, I am surviving on paranoia for this relationship.
I cannot help but feel shaken each time I recall what I've read/seen/discovered.
If someday this relationship dwindle to a losing end, I guess I can't solely blame him. I've to be blamed for his straying acts.
There must be a reason why certain things aren't shared with me, right? There must be a reason why some arguments are left dangling. One morning we both woke up realizing that our issues are so yesterday & started behaving perfectly normal. Eh, whatever happened to prior cold shoulder & one word replies?
Oh yes, we've chucked it down this barrel of ignorance!

You must be wondering why I'm keeping mum?
Simple reason - I wish to avoid any heated dispute & debate on trust & the likes. The possibility of that happening is a definite 100%.

2011-12-28T15:07:00.003+08:00

Wow it has definitely been quite a while.
I guess I've moved out of this penning down publicly phase & it sure feels awkward in trying to piece my thoughts.
Been doing quite a bit of reflection via my organizer & new notebook given by my boy!
& not forgetting occasional ramblings on twitter heehee.

Less than a week away to 2012.
I must say 2011 has been quite a ride.
I guess there was a balance of both the good & the bad, improvement from my wrecked 2010.
Yes slightly a month into my 2011, things spiraled; friendship frayed, warped thoughts, bitter emotions & so forth but I came out stronger :)

I also had amazing getaways (: Yup beginning to feel the pinch in my pocket haha.

A beginning with someone new. Albeit the pseudo variations of world war 3, I'm glad we are handling things better. For what is worth, we can do this ♥

Came to a realization that I'm still inclined to teaching.
Deep inside, I do wish to educate, inspire & get inspired.
I may not have excelled in major examinations that set myself apart from the rest, but I definitely hold tangible experiences in which allow myself to be different.
I shall not be doomed just because I've faltered.

Have a good remaining 2011 guys.
Let's end the year right, especially if we have failed to start it proper.
(:

2011-11-02T23:14:00.002+08:00

"You're not happy being with me right? At least that's the impression I gathered." - are you seriously mindfucking me? With such a preconceived notion in your head, I don't see why this should carry on. Like is it even worth proving you wrong?
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never good enough, yes okay I get it.

2011-08-26T11:09:00.003+08:00

Ramadhan 2011 is zooming way too fast.
You mean we are only 3 fasting days away from Syawal 2011? Wow.
But I guess 2011 is an extremely fast paced year. Look, we are nearing september in barely a week's time. That's an indication that we are 3/4 through the year. Another wow part 2!
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My room's extremely neat & squeakly clean right now. Yay me :D :D
The only thing left to do is change my bedsheets!
My hari raya bakes are not progressing well omg mad rush mad rush! *stabs self
Oh yeah I've also collected my tailored kebaya & kurong pesak!
Loveeeeeee the tailored kebaya x infinity kthx! Definitely a good steal from Bandung & Jkt *woop woop
BUT.. I've lost quite a bit of weight so I wouldn't look as flattering as I imagined it to be. SIGH.
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Omgomg (hyperventilation in progress) Adham sneaked a $10 Sogurt voucher + damn cute Teddy bear note in my bag yesterday when I was trying out my kebaya!
How sweet is that omgomgomg where did that idea came from? Considering I haven't been mentioning Sogurt in 2 weeks!
According to him, that's smtg small, a really small surprise for me as an advanced 22nd gift!
It means quite alot to me cause knowing him & the all boys environment that he grew up in.. This gesture feels heart-warming! (:
Alalalala I is so malu pls kekeke. Spanks & I lava chewwww :D *pinches his chubby cheeks ! It's quite cacat btw hahaha it's sooooo soft & bouncy, like some kind of tofu/ball! *boingboing

2011-08-08T23:10:00.002+08:00

*clutches tummy & mentally ripping my uterus apart
One hell of a cramp + nauseating feeling = fucked up
I'll be more than happy to give up my uterus to anyone out there.
Now do not start on the whole - I feel you babe blahblahblah.
Cause you obviously don't. You've no idea what I'm going through, what condition I'm under & how physically + mentally taxing this is.
I've always wanted to be, normal.

Distance

2011-08-03T11:04:00.003+08:00

I'm not too sure if it's because I embrace independence really well or it's because I'm glad for once my relationship is on a less clingy mode.
My past(s) has been all about seeing the other half 75-80% of my life, for at least 6 hours each.
So times like this when I'm with someone new.. What nots with all the staying too far from one another, forever flying, Sunday morning + afternoon is a must for family time.. I am surprisingly not complaining!
He told me that we should be glad there is some level of distance between us & I couldn't agree more.
It's amazing how each time we have an argument or disappointment, it has never ever once been about - why you stay so far. Why you always have plans.
It's always about frivolous petty things escalated into something big because well.. Yours truly is an attention cranky whore HAHA!
With that being said, I really treasure the time we spend together, even if it's just for half hour (like sending me off for tuition?).
Can never ask for anything more
(:
Afterall being together does not equate to demanding your partner to meet you everyday or call you up everyday.
I really love what's app btw heehee.
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This August Ramadhan would be all about 32 days of abstinence & absence.
Before spending time for slightly more than a week before I fly off for 11 days.
Mission possible this shall be!
Like he said, we ain't no further than we are now. At least we can be proud we are stronger than any other committed partners out there.
Huwahhhh some kind of cheesy only *blush blush
Afterall you need to experience some kind of restlessness, I miss you so damn much kinda adrenaline rush.
Sux2byou if you don't get to experience that. Might as well not move on to another level bahahaha #justsaying

2011-07-10T12:54:00.004+08:00

Have grown too emotionally attached & dependent on him to an extent that this 5 days Phuket Trip is such a drag
):
I/we have survived 7 days Melbourne, 3 days Genting, 3 days KL, 5 days Bandung + Jkt. So why not now right?
At least I was able to send him off & meet his wicked funny bunch of St Pat's guys!
& I was the one who suggested this post ORD trip before he source for a proper job / further education haha so I have no rights to feel sad nor a tad empty, right?
K la jealoussssssss too because I gave them ideas on the list of activities to do there incl para sailing & atv ride while I'm stuck here in Singapore with tuition assignments.
He better comes back with my favvvvvvv Thailand Phuket pancakes! *yumyum

2011-07-04T11:37:00.003+08:00

Always fighting for quality time & I always end up at the losing end.
This is tough, tougher than I imagined it to.
As if distance isn't enough to irritate me, this unspoken rule of restriction just have to rub in.
Why wasn't it like this back then? Why is it like this only after I've pledged a certain level of commitment?
Cannot help but think back if I made the right decision 2 weeks back.
I am certain tough times like this won't last, yes?
If I can deal with this, then I'm all set for every other issue.
Cheyyy #mcmfaham #selfassurance
& I want to go Phuket la kepala pisangggggg

US(S)

2011-06-17T15:27:00.002+08:00

Okay I know it's my 3rd trip in 6 months but in all honesty..
I WANNA GO AGAIN BAHAHAHA ~~
With every different company that you're with, it's always a different experience.
The size of a company (on wed it was just us two) matters as well.
But woohoo we conquered the day despite our cough, flu and extremely exhausted self.
6x battlestar cylon, 4x battlestar human, 6x mummy ride & 1x express queue for jurassic's rapid adventure!
Wicked awesome time with such an amazing company heehee I was such a happy goober
(:
Ended the crazy long day with a night Sentosa luge ride + chilling at IFLY MCD with songs that make us smile.
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p/s: bumped into different grps of ppl (including my students! Holy schmoly!) & 2 of them commented that Adham looks familiar.
Haiyooo all of you ppl don't mcm mcm can. He's all along an east sider, spent 10 yrs in a boys sch, went to a course in TP that's dominated by guys & is serving (albeit ending in a month's time) the police force with dominantly male colleagues!

2011-06-14T21:49:00.003+08:00

Been sick for the past week.
I reckon we'll give everything a miss tomorrow since we are both unwell.
But nothing beats how awful I'm feeling right now cause no amt of cough syrup, pills and rest can save me.
Sighhhh
)):
Sucks to have 2 people with an equally lousy immune system.
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plsplspls let me recover.
I can't even run & I really need to lose weight before august!

2011-06-12T12:22:00.002+08:00

Likes my Saturday kept short & simple.
Can still feel last night's BBQ food in my throat though :s
Satisfied my teh tarik craving @ 130am hehe.
Too pampered for my own good.
Cannot believe I gave my infamous puppy eyes + whine like a kid + slapped the thigh just because he said - balik sendiri. Who wants to send you back? Nev & I stay so near (Bedok).
All in the presence of Mirza, Nat, Nev & probably the two aunts who were behind us haha.
But all's good in the end.
Now that I've eaten so much the past week, time for a run!
I can probably squeeze in a swim too.

What is sleep?

2011-06-10T08:58:00.004+08:00

Screwed up my body clock all over again.
It's not cool to be up at 5am feeling all restless and worn our but your body refuses to shut.
Every single (fucking) day, I mental note myself to let the body give in but nooooooo.
Yes I can survive with just an hr of sleep. Tested & proven during my 9 months teaching stint.
I can even survive without sleep!
(2011 New Year - home at 330am, was occupied till 930, ate bfast shower, Nenek bday buffet at Hyatt, starbucks + tauhuay with my hockey boys till 1030pm!)
But hell yeah is it taking it's toll on my health.
Sick for more than 10 times in half a year.
Extremely ridiculous! Right now I'm suffering from extreme exhaustion from my lack of sleep
):
Needless to say, cranky me x10!
I've people suggesting doctor consultation & sleeping pills but I do not wish to stretch out to such an extent.
My whole life my body is dependent on medication & check ups to keep me in one piece.. (though i'm proud to say I can nw function without hormonal & cycle pills yayyyy!)
I am sure I can escape frm it this time round. At least my parents aren't aware.
On the contrary.. I hate how this lack of sleep is contributing to my weight gain. Sighhhh.
Not pretty, still want to make me fat & unappealing.

2011-06-04T07:47:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a good end to my week.
See... I am always much happier when I least expect things to happen.
Flying off to Bandung & Jkt with the parents + my not to small little sister.
Eggggggcited ~~
Be back in 5 days with alot of loots & hopefully a positively poached me.
Have a great weekend everybody!
Miss me cause I'll miss you, you & you
(:
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p/s: swimfast pls only render my render services after June hols. Me is want to go overseas with Ad,Ziq, Lisa.
alr missed a chance cause I was being a cranky whore & no one wants to bring a perangai songsang girl overseas & deal with all the drama.

2011-05-22T21:58:00.002+08:00

Was prepared to not have an easy journey.
Wasn't expecting it to be this hard & perplexing.
For what is worth...

Understand me. You understand?

2011-05-09T21:04:00.004+08:00

Is it so hard for you to understand?
My hands are full. I have 285 scripts to mark. I also have another 3 stack coming in this Wednesday.
I am making every conscientious effort to stay focused & finish them up.
Editing, close passage, 2 compre & 1 summary. 3 stacks of those. What makes you think I am taking this lightly?
What makes you think I prioritize fun, sleep and my reading over all these responsibilties!?
Yknw mr insensitive one.. if you can't lend me a helping hand, do not say things that make me feel worst?
Yes I admit. I whine, rant, vent my frustrations at you. You probably have to pay so much more attention than you ever had. But if you can't handle it, if you find it a chore & a pain. If you are having an extremely hard time trying to empathize.. LET ME KNOW! Do not say things that hurt. Do not assume.
During your busy, time & mind consuming GE period.. I have always been there despite my schedule.
I do not demand for us to meet up nor spend time.
I have always been encouraging you to pull through, reminding you of the freedom that awaits.
So what? I shouldn't expect the same kind of treatment & understanding?
It's my mistake to give a damn. It's my mistake for placing you in this bubble of importance. Where only the ones that matter will fit. Where only a certain degree of comfort perfectly fits an individual in it.

2011-05-05T13:51:00.003+08:00

Likes it when you organizes smtg for us to engage in.
USS part 3 in mid may! Please let it happen.
GE stole you/us from everything else.
& the happy me is glad that you appreciate Sogurt!

2011-04-17T13:54:00.004+08:00

2 consecutive days of Al-Azhar.
2 consecutive days of myself throwing a major bitchfit.
2 consecutive days of you giving me a surprise and trying so very hard to piece me back.
2 consecutive days of you muttering - dah lah jgn marah marah, as I walk past you.
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My emotion always gets the better of me.
One day my emotionally inclined actions will drive me further from the greater things in life.
On a random note, thank you my not so little sister for starting my saturday right!
Love you to infinity & beyond (:
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Oh did I tell you my froyo from Swirl Art is free?
199gm hehe.
Nothing can ever go wrong with a cup of froyo.

2011-04-04T17:34:00.000+08:00

I miss you more than you will ever know.

2011-03-20T20:48:00.002+08:00

I have yet to fully utilize my one week break.
Don't wish to start school tomorrow ):
Once again I have lost the drive and motivation to start school on a happy note.
I wish my sec 3s are more proactive & focused.
'nuff said.
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Yesterday I was tortured to maintain a 5 minutes awkward silence because I kept giving -anything uh- as an answer.
Ohmygoodness golly, I wouldn't wanna go through that again.
Somehow last night ended on a bitter note.
I feel as if I am slowly losing you.
-
At 230am I received a text that read "Mai are you still awake?"
I only noticed it past 3am but he was already asleep. You have no idea how lousy I felt because Hafiz has never behaved that way.
I knew something was wrong yet I wasn't by my phone when it was really necessary.
Woke up at 930am to an apology text from him instead for he failed to reply to mine.
Who cares about the groggy morning voice, but i could feel his frustration as he poured his heart out.
Hafiz is a really nice guy. I don't understand why the girlfriend is doing this to him albeit his patience and composure.
I hope he seeks a proper closure because today he went for a floorball game amidst a worried mind and an empty stomach.
Not like you'll ever read this, but dear Heedayah, kindly take a step forward and do the right thing - admit your mistake, apologise and fall back into his arms.

Tuesday tauhuay part 2

2011-03-09T22:25:00.004+08:00

Had to go through a ridiculous Tuesday yesterday afternoon.
Mom called me a taitai yesterday & putri said - taitai duit baru masuk!!
Haha so cuteeeee! I really love her & at times, I can't help but still treat her like an 11 years old.
It felt really really good to let it out by grabbing good buys over at Topshop & F21
(:
What's even better? Last min meet up & driving me down Selegie Rd for my tauhuay albeit this sore throat hehe.
When I alighted from the car, I received a huge ass Hershey's choc bar to make up for the earlier crappy day.
Teehee *blushes
Why am I deserving of such nice friend(s)? I should learn to be more appreciative. Need to stop being a prick with an overwhelming ego and expectation.
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Need to find a way to boost my immune system.
Woke up with a bad sore throat, aching body & fever.
Sigh. This is the 4th time in 2011 that I am unwell & it is only the beginning of March!

Tuesday tau huay

2011-03-03T20:55:00.003+08:00

It was a happy Tuesday! Say yay!
Food comforts the tummy. Food comforts the cranky me.
It was a good night of starbucks, selegie tau huay + youtiao & macs 1-1 Nuggets!
Not forgetting winning mono deal with zero game strategy & ridiculous cards that amount to $63 million wtfff?
Haha good times good times.
It will be a bonus if we do not stay at such an isolated extreme end.
Once in a while, come la to the west side.
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Conversations were exchanged as if there wasn't any friction between us.
How did we deal with that? Beats me. I'd rather not know.
Hafiz made a point afterall. Speaking of which, he is such a nice guy.
Heedayah is one lucky girl.

2011-02-18T23:29:00.002+08:00

I have really amazing, fun loving and witty colleagues in school!
I am really thankful for this.
Today's BBQ & bonding session was the best way to end the weekday.
Thank you Jennifer (:
But as of now, I shall crash cause my exhuastion is beginning to sink in.
Have a great weekend, to whoever that is reading this! Afterall, it is rare to see me exude such positivity.

2011-02-11T05:57:00.004+08:00

I do not know what to make out of this anymore.
Just like everyone else, I should really pick up the art of indifference.

Ohana = Family?

2011-02-06T12:51:00.005+08:00

I have grown to develop a dislike towards the circle of people whom I thought was beyond amazing & loving, a decade back.
I have seriously forgotten how I used to be damn close to the man of the house. How I would run towards him to seek comfort, solace and more often than not; material satisfaction.
Right now.. I am seldom home. I barely greet them early in the morning. I barely give my dad a kiss on his cheeks. I no longer tease mommy for being short & chubby (hehe like a teapot). Or how the brother & I only talk when we need each other's help. My heart is always full of angst & frustration, I don't bother making attempts to strike a conversation.
Just an hour plus ago.. I heard him labelling me as useless cause I only made a drink for myself. For always putting myself before others, at least in a family context.
A week ago while tossing & turning on my (huge) bed.. I looked around me. My room could have been a house on it's own.
I only needed two things to complete the look- a toilet & a mini fridge to store my yakult & fruits (strawberry, apple, seedless grape).
Is that why each time I'm home, right now for this instance.. I am always cooped up within these 4 walls?
Maybe.. Few years down the road I'll really realize the importance of a close-knitted family. I'll be able to once again embrace the moment that I was living comfortably in more than a decade ago.
Most importantly.. Not to feel irked when my mom says - I love you.
Because if the KBSM entourage can accomplish it, why can't I?
There is only the 4 of us while the entourage has more than 10 times that value!
*sidenote
I am not saying there isn't any form of communication going on.
The level of communications feels.. Frivolous? Vague? On the surface? A touch & go moment?
It is the kind of communication where you can always do without. The kind of communication where there will never be any room for progression.
The kind of communication that only I will "understand", not so much of fathoming.

2011-01-29T09:45:00.003+08:00

I cannot put this across in any way that is less crude..
January you are so fucked up!
I need you to hurry come to an end & not influence my other months
):
Until I can sort the messed up me, imma disappear from here & from everyone else.
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Acquaintance > Trusted friend + good times > Acquaintance (again) on a new awkward level.
Mampos mampos mampos I never thought I'll experience such a transition.
p/s: you don't like this you better say it out. I do not appreciate hints from social networking site. You expect me to comprehend them?
Where got time bro, where got time!
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I barely had 2 hours of sleep on Thursday night.
Last night I fell asleep at 3odd while penning down my reflection + what's app-ing Hafiz.
I've been up since 830am, something is obviously wrong with me
):

Awkward turtle

2011-01-16T11:01:00.003+08:00

This "closure" wasn't like how I expected it to be.
Awkward turtle huhuhu.
This is what I hate about misunderstandings & expectations in a friendship.. The end product is always so awkward despite it looking fine on the surface.
You will never get back what you once experience & treasure
:/
It seems like this year is slowly downsliding.

2011-01-13T01:00:00.002+08:00

You know there are days where you just know you won't pull through the week?
Or there are days when you just feel like disappearing from everyone despite the promises you made?
Or there are days where you can't help but to continue expecting even when you are fully aware that should have come to a stop.
You know what?
This ongoing week fits all of the above mentioned.
I feel like... Giving up & throwing this away.

A year.

2011-01-09T12:28:00.002+08:00

So what?
2010 has definitely been a challenging year for me & you have no idea how much I wanted it to come to an end.
I amaze myself in going through the motions & eventually turn into a hopeless emotional wreck.
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It's been a week into 2011 & it has been progressing well.
I like how this starts off on a really really bright note (:
I'm not sure how long this positivity will last but I'll just accept it till it decides to screw up.
& I forged friendships with people that I least expected myself to.
In all honesty, I enjoy their company & protection (for lack of a better word). Maybe it's a blessing in disguise? They are slowly teaching me not to be too quick in judging. I'll probably be much happier if I quit judging.
Hmmmm...

2010-12-23T14:17:00.005+08:00

Yay! Successful Xmas bakes :D:D
Damn happy when someone commented - wah you can bake & it's much better than I expected.. nice sia. I take all ah?
Making the icing from scratch is mad frustrating cause the dye refused to set in >:
But with alot of patience from Lynnette we did it hehe yayyyy!
Note to self - do not use granulated sugar, learn to chill when squeezing the icing out of the bag + steady hands please.
Imma bake more in January ^^
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Ytd I realized... Starbux huge ass choc chip cookie is so chewy & good!!
Sorry ah, I don't go starbux for the cookie so don't judge.
But not bad ah, I baked cookies & got super soft chewy cookie & a venti iced water (hahahaha long story!) in return.
Tanjung Pagar starbux is also a very calming place to chill after 9pm <:
& girls who are younger are looking more & more of people of my age.
Whaaaaatttttt is this!? Am I too kental for my own good, ohnoseeeee
)):
& why am I known as "Oh you're Hazwan's fyp mate right?". I have a name please & that makes me wonder..
Wan Nur Hazwan, what have you been gossiping abt me during trainings back in school!?

2010-12-16T01:27:00.003+08:00

Surprised Lynnette & Hidayah on separate weeks.
So successful!
Hiii everyone, maybe I should be a guy & start surprising my girlfriend so that she will love me more.
Or everyone should hire me to come up with an amazing simple surprise plan hehe.
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Why hello you, comel x10^5
<: <: <:

2010-12-12T00:16:00.003+08:00

Ion Orchard > Nex Mall (Serangoon) > Pasir Ris.
Uh huhhh.. Today I feeling travel all around the weird ends of Singapore.
Despite the massive crowd in Nex, I still stand by the belief that the purple line is ulu & outcasted.
If not for my Sogurt hahaha I doubt I'll ever make the effort in heading there again.
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Been eating 2 cups of yoghurt almost every other day.
Yummmzzzz but I am super broke now *sobbbbzzzz
This is the second time Sogurt doesn't have my fruitty pebbles
)):
& granola bits IS NOT hamster food tsktsk.
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Had a great time over at Xinyi's 21st birthday yesterday
((:
& Sarpino's taste super good!! I am greatly impressed.
Being the oink oink me, I joined Putri family + few other cousins over for supper at Simpang.
GEMUK OR WHAT, I NEED TO EXERCISE SOME SELF CONTROL KTHX.
& I wanna poke the eyeballs of the people there. Excuse me, I was from a party you cannot blame me for being aesthetically appealing!
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This shall end very abruptly haha byebye!

Arigatoooooo

2010-12-06T19:12:00.002+08:00

Back home from Japan!
I had really really soft & damn good naan there.
Whoaaa wtffff the irony huh?
I also had my starbux fix hehehe ^^
Tokyo Banana is yummmzzzz~
Japan has too much tantalizing bakeries yummzzzzz x10!
:D
SQ A380 ftw idc how spoilt you people think I am!
You (always) pay for the quality what, or so I believe.
600+ photos O.o god bless me & uploading them.

2010-11-29T16:01:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry I'm not her.
I cannot even try to be her. I wouldn't even come close.
Trying not to crumble, crumbling, crumbled.
Crumbled. Crumbled. Crumbled.
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Edit (1920)
"You play floorball? Not bad.. You don't look like the sports type" -> HAHA Yarrr, why leh? I look like what type, stay home & knit sweater?
HAHAHA LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING.

2010-11-26T00:22:00.005+08:00

Happy happy thursday! :D :D
Kinda forgot how it feels to be genuinely happy & I'm glad today happened.
(;
I exceptionally love it when people allow me to be who I am, even if this is something new.
Should learn to count my blessings.
Should learn to never overlook the new people in my life.
People who makes me (genuinely) happy are never the people I expect.
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Omgggg Baskin' Robbins is so damn good!
The colours make me happy too yay!
+ it taste like a combination of cotton candy & bubblegum just that its sweetness wasn't too overwhelming.
Yummmzzzzzzz ~
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Natasha aka my lil brat means so much to me!
So glad Mama allows us both to hang out / rather accompany me to watch a match.
Thrift shopping before I leave for Japan next week.
Woop woop!
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Way too cool & nice
(Y)

2010-11-19T00:05:00.003+08:00

After today, I realized I'll just head towards the depression road if I lose the one that means so much to me.
I am relieved you are too afraid to execute the unthinkable.
You will be okay. You must be okay.
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We all know very well how ridiculously noisy & chatty I can get.
But jengjengjeng, sometimes beneath all these in fact I feel awkward? Haha
But today, I realized I can get very comfortably chatty with an acquaintance.
& the best thing? He did not judge, so yay to that!
"Eh don't worry I won't judge, continue your story."
:D

2010-11-13T01:20:00.002+08:00

I need to be productive all over again.
I am so envious of my good friends who are studying their ass off in University.
Hello brain, it's time to get yourself working.
I've wasted enough years already, the more I wait.. The more I'll lag behind this society.
Being the typical me, I don't like losing out.
I know I always return home with average end product, but that doesn't mean deep inside I don't feel crushed or upset.
It is time I put in more effort. Yes Maiz, you are too lazy and unmotivated for your own good.

2010-11-11T16:43:00.002+08:00

Such an angsty and irritating day.
Full of rage. Seething with anger. Eversince 12pm.
Piss me off further & I'll crush you with my smelly feet & jiggly elephant thighs.
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TO THE ONE ANNOYING IDIOT.
STOP PMS-ING LIKE A GIRl.
I WONDER WHY YOUR EX GF CRAWL BACK TO YOU WHEN YOUR BEHAVIORAL PATTERN CHOKES ME TO DEATH. TO THINK I AM JUST A FRIEND & I ALREADY FEEL THIS WAY.
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Bleeding broke right now
): Hi Japan you are sucking up too much of my cash.
Can I stay in Singapore instead?

2010-11-03T21:04:00.002+08:00

*sneak peak

Hao Jie, Alex, Moon, Yu Ling, Si Tian
<3
Who would have thought they'll grew so emotionally attached to me?
All these while, I've doubted my capabilities because these kids are independent and quick thinking.
I'm glad I've impacted your life, be an inspiration & not just a teacher figure.
Detailed entry soon
(;

2010-10-18T22:27:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wanted to be normal?
After today, I cannot stop wishing that I am normal.
This week starts off with a very angsty me that is overflowing with pessimism.
To the few concerned ones, thank you.
(: Because you care, I shall be strong & continue fighting!

2010-10-08T15:45:00.002+08:00

It's impossible to get the hang of something within a span of 3 weeks.
An hour's lesson per week.
There's only so much I can do, so much these kids can understand, absorb and apply.
)): I am already clearing up the mess of the prev people involved in this.
What else what else what (fucking) else!?
The grade reflected myself as an incompetent individual.
I'm never stepping into this, used to be, second home anymore.

2010-09-27T22:59:00.003+08:00

Horrible start to the week.
I already cannot wait for it to end. Mentally, emotionally and physically draining.
)):
-
Y'knw what? If this afternoon was a testament of my
tolerance level and amount of faith I have in you, congrats!
You've succedeed. You are pushing me so much to the edge, I'm this close in conceading defeat.
I cannot fucking fathom what is it you bunch of imbeciles want.
Haven't I given you enough space? Haven't I balance out the fun & respect factor?
Most importantly haven't I made more attempts in trying to understand you better?
If you can be so fun loving & adorable after 1.30pm, why is it so hard to be that way all the time?
I'm not liking the new 'banding'. I'll never get use to it.
Judge all you want, but a big fuck you to the whole bunch.
This is mad exasperating. I've no idea why I bother caring so much, to begin with.
-
There's also a stupid cunt of class 4C who is hating me on a basis that she feels I've been giving her the killer stare.
Keyword: feels.
That's how insecure she is. Happily judging me & proclaiming I suck.
Excuse me immature lil minah, I've no idea who you are but I'm guessing it's hollow up there.
Quit judging, grow out of that attention seeking self & study for your N's.
That'll be a good reflection on how you'll progress in life, in which i personally feel would be an epic fail.
-
Back to my stack of comprehension passages & letter writing.
With such an appalling command of English, it makes me wonder how they'll fare this coming wednesday.
Meowwww!

2010-09-11T12:11:00.002+08:00

Hehe happy girl@89 yesterday ^^
Managed to control my food intake yet have massive amount of fun and satisfaction.
Plus adorable pretty girls like me still get Hari Raya (not always) green packets :D :D
Thankful for it thus it shall go to my Japan/Europe trip shopping funds!
I think I'm so much more mature & this is my virgin attempt at saving money hahaha.
Never too old to start in anything okayyyzzz, gimme credit please (;

bake it, bake bake, bake it

2010-09-05T11:50:00.002+08:00

I understand how most people find baking such a tedious task.
It requires alot of patience as well.
On the contrary however, it's amazing how it always help me feel less disoriented and more content. It's like the end result is always on a positive note.
Been feeling like crap(for lack of a better word, my thoughts are messed) & so I'm gonna bake bake bake today :D
Grocery shipping with Dean was successful yesterday albeit the level of kecohness we created.
-
I would like to think I've a stalker on my fs O.o
It might be a prank lah from some friends, so better own up horrrrrr!
Because honestly, who will crush/swoon over me?
But I think I just scared him/her away hahaha. Am I fierce or whatttttttt!?
-
Hari Raya is in 6 days & my room is extremely cluttered!
I used to be very anal on how my study table is but what happened can somebody enlighten me please?
It looks super unglam x10 & it's surprising how I didn't get annoyed. Maybe I have just stopped bothering? Oh wellzzzz
I also have yet to have a slimmer waist & tummy. Gonna look like a dumpling on Saturday especially, what nots with the corset. Pffft!

2010-08-22T16:50:00.003+08:00

This space is as lifeless as myself.

Barely have time to enjoy & I'm already getting the hang of this.

This is definitely exasperating because that is not how I am.

Within two weeks, I've bought 3 new staplers.

Within two months, I've bought 4 red pens.

Well done!

boys & english

2010-08-08T00:24:00.004+08:00

I hope you boys will be this adorable each time I step into class.

Like me as much as I like you.

Have faith in me as much as I have faith in your English grade.

If this wish of mine is granted, I'll be so much happier.

It isn't too much to ask for, yes?

2010-07-31T16:06:00.002+08:00

Such an amazing picture.

This was taken during the Singapore Arts Festival - College Campus Platform, earlier this year.

I want to be able to do this too
):

Maybe it's time I get my lazy ass back to Zaini's technique class.

Can lose weight too, hiak hiak

:D :D

2010-07-27T21:44:00.005+08:00

/Edit 30th July 2010
The irony.
So my enthusiasm and determination was short-lived.
I crumbled earlier on. A part of me is harping on the fact that its a wrong move. Another part of me is comforting the poor me that everyone have their limits, one's brim is measurable. There's only so much how one can handle.
-
2 days mc! :D
Gonna make full use of this time to have suffiicient rest and mull over why I have very little control when it comes to my lower sec kids. I also need to explore on how I can strive to be a better teacher. Past two weeks had been mad exhausting. But my / our possibilities are infinite, so I'm just gonna endure and strive on. It's not gonna reflect very well on me and my very awesome RO if my students produce crappy results! Yes they do give me (alot of) shit but aiyahhh what to do hor?
-
I get annoyed and prissy when people tell me - aiyah it's only sec sch lit. Tell the kids what's there to complain in comparison to tertiary institutes.
I'm sorry but excuse me miss, there's a difference in taking lit and excelling in it. I personally feel that my kids are excelling in this albeit being thrown to a very dry and thought provoking book. They're very independent too, I like that about them alot!
Yes you may take lit in A levels but I doubt you excel in it. You can't even spell certain words correctly, geez.
Just go ahead, get married and have 10 kids already.
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Alright babies, I'm off to have my 3rd nap. Oh wait, take this as a proper sleep!
Goodnight and pray that I get well soon :D
Tons of kisses and random stories from me soon, I hope?

2010-06-06T02:13:00.003+08:00

N & N are so sweet and cute together, omgggg jealous! I'm happy that she finds someone that sweet and friendly, but it really amaze me on how someone can be that lucky. Oh well, maybe it's just smtg that Chinese boys have that lacks in a malay dude. On a new mission now hahaha kthxbyeeeee!

Annoyed annoyed need to rant

2010-05-23T23:22:00.005+08:00

If you can't handle it, seriously do not bother. I'm seriously so irritated right now, i've no room for compromisation nor sympathy! No one's forcing it on you, so whyyy tell me why!? Oh another thing, you stupid advertisements, I am not the least bit interested! So stop advertising you douche bags! Each time I delete them, you retag! So free right? Go learn knitting or something. Better still, go study or upgrade yourself to make yourself a stronger, more worthwhile contibutor to the economy & country!

2010-05-11T21:54:00.005+08:00

Ummmm some, okay fine quite alot of visuals, to make up for my absence in this space.

Sorry lah, the lazy bug got into me.

Ishraf's B Div Police Cup Rugby Finals.

ACS (I) vs St Andrew's School (SAS) : 8-7

Such an exhilarating match wooo!

Awesome after match dinner at Marriot Hotel!

#21 is way too tiny right? But eh he's quite okay on the field though.

Surprise surprise <:

Idk why, but I'm so proud of them.

Its like I've watched them play from C div till B Div!

Ishraf aka our apek with the school flag! (:

The cousin is one proud assistant coach, AC alma mater & rugby sir (that's what the boys call him) despite the injury.

Siblings!

One proud (ex SAS rugger) dad. I remember him saying that he didn't expect his boys to bring rugby to a whole new competitive level. He initially just wanted them to experience contact sport.

Hi, you macam cute can? <: <:

Okay wow, that's a shitload of pictures!

Few weeks back I dropped by RP for the SLA fiesta.

Being the princess that I was, I just sat at the Create.Republic booth & people watch while getting my pictures taken.

w/ Warren whom I kept stealing cookies from! <:

w/ Raffy. Hi dear boy, where's my subway cookie? )):

But ehh for a 18 year old, he's damn mature please. His r/s advice is like mmhmm top notch yo!

Oh had my cravings satisfied!

Miss these people please, so glad we're meeting this thurs for the grad ceremony! (:

T3 Popeye's > Marina Square Starbucks > Suntec City > Orchard Central.

Reached home at 1130 & I was already dead beat. I even slept in the car on the way home.

T: Eh you look pregnant sia.

M: Yah lah I malay, must be pregnant righttt? Its the shirt please wahlao!

LOL CANNOT STAND THE WAY I LOOK!

I look damn horrid, that's like how I was in the hospital after my op please

>:(

Okay lah I lazy already.

But oh I went for Copeland's secret show - Up Close & Personal.

It was beyond amazing.

Pictures some other time, promise!

You have no idea how my heart melted the moment Aaron Marsh's fingers started playing Brightest!

& Stephen is a cutie as always, love it when he blush teehee <:

Grad Ceremony aka Convocation this coming Thursday!

Sigh, am still ambivalent about leaving this school because it has taught me so much!
)): I think I got so much hands on experience that anyone can ever think of.

But come this thursday, its time I really start thinking on what I wanna do.

The thing about growing up..

Its like at 1am, I was chatting with Nirza about university admission & weddding plans.

Hello omg wth, isn't it too early, the latter especially?

But whatever it is, my kids will have a good life!

GO ME!
<:

to the woman of the house

2010-05-09T01:26:00.003+08:00

You're the woman of the house, without which this household will crumble.

But I really wish we were closer together.

I wish we need not fight/argue everyday.

I wish as of right now, we are on talking terms.

Its amazing how you are really capable of annoying me.

I wanted to scream at you today when you said: Mind your words, it will reflect how I brought you up.

But I held it back because in one way or another, I still respect you.

You took great care of me while I was in the hospital & that was like the only time I felt we had a really close bond.

It then strike me that you actually still (really) love me, despite it all.

Happy Mother's Day Mom.

I love you still, let's hope as time goes by, I'll learn to love & appreciate you more.

p/s: That's like our only picture together.

2010-05-03T22:18:00.003+08:00

I think today proved how incompetent I really am.

Sighs, rejection never felt this painful before.

I'm gonna cry myself to sleep & pray for a better year & future ahead of me.

crazy much

2010-04-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

Okay this is totally insane but I just received a call from USS to report for Monday's photoshoot at 7 -freakingomgareyoukiddingme- am.

YES AM, ANTE-MEREDIEN, IN THE MORNING.

WHO THE HELL DOES PHOTOSHOOT SO EARLY!?

Ok yes I know you'll need to doll me/us up, but isn't 7am way too ridiculous?

The dinosaurs, mummy revenge, enchanted characters are all still sleeping okay

)):

I wonder if the shuttle service to RWS is even operating at such an hour uggh.

If the real photoshoot only starts around 10 or something, I will throw a major bitchfit.

2010-04-13T14:34:00.005+08:00

Ok since I'm like real bored & reading others crack me up, I've one myself too!

Its never too late okay, so shut up.

If its way way way way way too personal, I might consider ignoring & deleting it.

Can always email me what, if you mange to figure out my email add <:

http://www.formspring.me/herescape

p/s: you can check out my reply by clicking on the same link

I had such an exhilarating time watching the Police Cup B Div Rugby Finals yesterday.

But I'm really glad ACS(I) won albeit the fist drama the moment the whistle was blown.

SA dude, seriously..

Shall blog more about it soon-ish.

Promise okay!
(:

2010-04-05T01:04:00.004+08:00

Earlier part of the day I was mad pissed & annoyed.

Its like I've never felt that kind of negativity for quite a while, so I was all restless & I could just whack anyone that's around me

>:(

But now I can sleep a happy kid because the awesome posume TRCC people popped me a surprise at 945pm.

Teeeeeheeeeee!

More updates later on once I'm up.

Goodnight kids! <: <: <:

Edit//

Them awesome people surprised me at my doorstep last night at 945pm.

Teeeheeeee, I'm touched okay, I nearly cried, it was almost there.

I didn't know Raffy had a role in it although he wasn't physically there.

No wonder he kept texting me & to think we argued about High School Musical -.-

IKR, of all things. Geez.

So yeap! I got a billboard of get well soon messages & they were so wicked funny yet sweet.

& I FINALLY HAVE MY ICED CARAMEL MACHIATTO DELIVERED TO MY DOORSTEP.

I win :D Are you jealous yet?

Thank you so much people, you have no idea how much this means to me.

You rank first, followed by my LOS gang.

(: Will never trade you for anything else, promise!

The cousin paid me a visit earlier this week looking all tanned.

& she bought me..

(from Etude House & The Face Shop)

in order for me to accomplish

this blackhole inspired nails!

I was so damn pleased okay <: <:

Yes I may not be able to get the exact same result, but at least the base is almost similar.

Candice could do a replica of it though, but damn, she live damn far please.

When I'm less lazy, I shall get her to help me do it.

Thanks again cousin! :D

Now that's a whole lot of word vomit again.

I cannot seem to not have a less wordy entry.

Ohhhh, did I mention Puck from Glee swoons me all the time?

Heck, he's such a typical bad boy with hideous mohawk hairstyle, but there is just something about him.

I'm weird like that, thanks!

Oh SAJC Rapture would be on 14th May 2010.

Anyone in for it? Dean would probably ditch me like how he did for NUS Next Wave 2009

Momentum Dance Festival 2010 is on 26th-27th May 2010.

Go get your tickets now!

Oh the little brat seasons has started like last month & the team is doing well.

Against powerhouse VJC all over again, just like last year.

I hope they'll continue to put on a tougher fight this round.

GO SA Hockey!

Ishraf rugby finals are next monday.

Omg excited much! I hope it'll be against SAS once again & I hope it'll be as dramatic as last year.

Hi syirin if you are reading this, shall we go together again?

(;

2010-03-29T22:55:00.003+08:00

OH HAI!

Meet the himbo!

(click to enlarge, lazy to upload to PB)

Like whuttttt, all along you think the spots are there for fun ah?

But laugh at him also no point, I still got owned

>:( My strategy fail times 10. HOW CAN LIKE THAT!?

He doesn't even know how to play the game okay, pfffft.

(& yah yah yah now you all know my name has a Siti in it. Lazy to blur it lah, just realize) haha!)

2010-03-27T22:37:00.005+08:00

A couple of days back the awesome Lights of Spring (LOS) gang popped me a visit.

They did it before I was admitted, while I was in hospital, once I was discharged.

To those who didn't even bother fulfilling either of the above, shame on you >:(

Its a surprise how Lakeside felt alien for everyone haha.

Its also amazing how I found (awesome) friends in such an unexpected place.

Like hey its only a 1 week stint event, see how far we've come?

Busy Chatrouletting & Stick-Camming.

Oh hai tabby, why you look so handsome?

We concluded that he's prolly gay.

He only likes & responds to Saiful.

Poor Ila & Jannah haha.

Cannot stop raving on how much I love & treasure the paternal side.

Heck if it isn't a full picture of the cousins, but it made me happy all the same

Cine Pastamania > The Forum Coffee Bean > Island Creamery

Thank you Abg Fahmy for driving us around.

Thank god for the Estima, no?

$1 cheap thrill.

Conclusion? 1 round = 10cents.

Favourite (not so little) girl <: <: <:

She texted my friends & kept everyone updated on my FB wall.

Heee, I am so touched!

My pet sotong (hahahah) Hidayah is popping me a visit sometime before friday?

Oh yayyyy! Miss that crazy woman, its like MSN is never enough.

Okay lah she gave me alot of reminder to sleep early (like everyday for a week?) before the OP.

Sweet right? I shy kiddd *blushes

On a totally different upsetting note.

The usual TRCC gang is working for Timbre Rock & Roots.

Having a time of their life with The Fray & whatnots.

What about me? Stuck at home!!! >:(

Sux2beme ugghh!

Need.To.Recover.Like.Pronto.

Also not able to attend St Andrew's Band Concert tomorrow.

Its their usual annual concert consisting all 4 subsectors - Junior Sch, Sec boys, Jc & Alumni.

Go kiki! I will be rooting for you from home, I hope it'll be able to reach to the ends of Esplanade hall

2010-03-24T22:20:00.004+08:00

Edit//

Oh remember my 2nd February entry regarding Andy Low commenting I'm perpetually oblivious & its such a shame to see me as a year 3 student?

Guess what? I yet again, got another A for the final paper & that makes me an A student for that module.

*bows down

IN YOUR FACE! IF YOU'RE SO CAPABLE AH, YOU WOULDN'T BE OUT OF ESPN OR SOMETHING & TEACHING "PERPETUALLY OBLIVIOUS" STUDENTS LIKE ME.

*blows dust off*

Its been long, I know I know.

Betcha miss me :D

Its been a very trying one week but I'm glad I pull through.

To those that mattered, aren't you both glad & proud of me?

(;

Oh oh, results were released yesterday but I am 0.5 points away from my desired

)): Upset times ten, really.

But I'm glad I'd be graduating come 13th May 2010, let me embrace you please!

But I'm still not ready to leave TRCC.

Need.To.Learn.To.Let.Go.

Okay strong strong craving for Starbucks right now >:(

Iced Caramel Machiatto to be exact.

Really wished they do delivery, Cheeyang said there's a possibility at selected areas.

Whoaaaaa, am gonna head down to check it out when I'm allowed to do so!

Visuals some other time, promise promise

Oinkoink

2010-03-14T23:57:00.002+08:00

Food feast part II.

Sorry no photos cause silly me left the camera at granny's house since I was in a rush to head down town

>:(

Sakura International Buffet (lunch) > Granny's place > Soup spoon > Fish & Co > Walked down somerset where we bumped into weird pinoy maids dancing outside Wisma (!!!!)

Whoa, pig much?

& wanna know what's worst?

We didn't find soup spoon very filling, so we conveniently hop over to Fish & Co which was directly beside it.

Oink oink at its best, thankssss

<: <:

2 more days can you believe it!

I can pull through this.

GO ME!
:D

2010-03-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

I'm annoyed with all the unnecessary attention on Jack Neo's infidelity.

Hello all you brainles ugly woman, you're only voicing out because you want more attention & cash, no?

& the wife gets on my nerve during the press conference. Its in chinese, why am I not surprised.

But I bet you only wo ai wo ai his kachingggssssss, not because he's your charismatic & creative husband.

Please eh, stop it! Not like by saying that you get $10k more out of him or something.

Nor will the media give your family a break. If I'm your kid, I'm ashamed of you both.

Its bad enough the press knock on the wrong door hahaha noob noob!

Sheesh, but there can only be 1 Tiger Woods.

Thanksssss <:

Saw this on an acquaintance update: "You don't know school pride until you play a team game and go for competitions."

Ignoring his gramatically wrong English, I kind of agree.

& it makes me miss entering competitions all together.

When was the last time I had such a strong drive & determination towards winning or at least proving others of my worth?

When was the last time a whole (ok make it 1/2 since some idiots barely work hard yet get the credit, mehhhh) team cried together, wishing we had done better? Or going through tears of joy for we had managed to prove our worth?

Its time to get back into a competitive self.

GO ME :D

But but but but..

TRCC made me have a better hold of what school pride is about.

Makes me better want to prove to others that RP has a value afterall.

Meowwwwww, but its still not as strong as bringing glory back.

2010-03-10T18:52:00.005+08:00

Gym & lunch got cancelled.

Still feeling a little annoyed because I really need to hit the gym since I'm feeling all frustrated & restless.

But I realized I'm damn dependent on people so I should learn to be abit more understanding since activities are not all about me me me.

Was chatting with hidayah (ok what's new, we chat like everyday!) & she said something that made me smile!

"Aku tak sampai hati nak sepak kau" (translation: I don't have the heart to slap you)

123 say - Awwwwww!

How sweet is that? Despite me being all fickle and irritating.

Never too young to be a rockstar.

Jyeaaaah (Y)

I really hope tomorrow turns out well.

I'm somehow damn looking forward to it.

If I get through, I'll kiss babygirl & make the best out of this opportunity!

Afterall I can be good friends with them dinos, no? <:

2010-03-08T01:57:00.002+08:00

I love how 2010 is such a good concert year for Singapore.

Its like all the awesome bands are here performing & it always come out wickedly awesome.

Its like seeing the music and arts industry finally thriving.

But I hate how I don't or rather can't attend most of it.

I've lost a parter/buddy that I believe would accompany me for all these stuff.

Seeing how he gets to enjoy them, made my heart ache

They're once in a lifetime opportunities & I know I used to be able to count on you on such stuff, but nope now its all gone.

I am not a heart breaker, I will stick to what I actually am missing of.

Sighs I hate quiet late nights like this.

It makes me think alot.

It makes me realize how I'm actually not totally over someone

2 fucking years, what/why the hell am I holding for? This thin thread is already broken, yes there used to be a fine thread of hope.

But all is gone now. Why am I wallowing in such misery still?

Somebody enlighten me right now. There must be a reason why you are my past, no?

Screw ; With faith comes hope.

Nabehhh(sorry I do have my ahlian tendency kthxbai) its not easy instilling faith.

I NEED TO RANT, PERIOD

2010-03-07T23:30:00.002+08:00

Omg hi! I need to rant, I need to get this off my chest.

It is killing me!

As everyone know, the weather's insane right now.

Everyone's dying in this sweltering heat..

But honestly, DO WE HAVE A CHOICE!? DO WE HAVE A FUCKING CHOICE!?

This whole El Nino effect, global warming shit is a never ending process!

Its like.. The tendency to blast the fan / aircon is higher when the heat gets unbearable.

Do not tell me, the blasting of such inventions will worsen the condition & further deplete the ozone layer, because WE HAVE NO FUCKING CHOICE YOU GET IT!?

You can't expect me to die in the sweltering unbearable heat right right right!?

Its a natural reaction to turn somewhere for salvation, it is NOT an act of being ungrateful and ignorant.

If such an invention will increase the chance of all of us dying much earlier because mother earth is already 50% there in destroying us.. WHY DO YOU COME UP WITH SUCH AN INGENIOUS IDEA!?

These inventors/scientist ain't that smart afterall.

2010-03-07T00:10:00.007+08:00

So damn hungry right now >:(

I want my Mcspicy & shaker fries!

Boohoo!

Oh oh naan with butter chicken sounds good too! Would have eaten that with Natasha if not for the fact I was too lazy to get my ass out of the house at 930pm?

I think I have a very gross & never ending appetite. Geez am I even human or not!?

I WILL LOVE WHOEVER THAT SURPRISE ME WITH THIS FROM SEPHORA!

MAD GORGEOUS & HEAVENLY THANKS (:

It will make a good hospital visit gift. Ditch those flowers k? Me no likey

Lol lol!

Its creepy how the only thing that's on my mind now is..

Shopping & University acceptance.

I can go on about myself needing a space in a local uni, but nope I shall not do it now.
Probably when I get rejected or something ):

Oh I probably need a boyfriend too hahaha okay not funny.

Edit//

Whoawhoa. Found out that my Trella boys made it to Round2 of Baybeats audition!

Let's pray they pull through the entire process & get a chance to play!

I shall apply for ALO role & shamelessly take them, AGAIN!
:D They said I was good okay hahaha don't doubt my capability.

2010-03-03T00:42:00.002+08:00

HF: When was the last time you had someone you liked, like you back?

M: Ummm quite some time back. Forgotten how it feels like.

HF is right. We are all attention whores to some degree, we have yet to realize it.

Don't we always crave for something better even when we already have someone/something in hand?

Don't our eyes wander around for the perfect fit?

Its like.. Why do we rant & throw our dirty laundry around?

How often do we tell others of our achievement & happiness?

That's because the negativity brings about more attention.

I for one, love attention alot alot :D

Nope I'm not weird, you are.

This shall end abruptly because I need to sleep & think of my breakfast.

Hahahaha goodnight all <:

2010-03-01T22:14:00.006+08:00

Feeling exceptionally hardworking today.

This mood doesn't come often so I better make use of it before it fades.

Put your hands up if you've had an awesome weekend haha.

Friday's casting was good.

I definitely learn that its highly impossible for me to speak slowly while exuding a high level of enthusiasm.

But hello you can't blame me! I speak fast whatttt, its in me.

Andrea & her Paris / yes you may joke.

HAIYO! Tak boleh tahan ah, last warning please hahaha.

Nice experience still, gotta love TRCC more.

I hope this corporate video goes well!

Saturday is Food Feast!

I was eating non stop plus they were good food.

Who cares if I'll gain 3 kgs, food makes me happy woo!

You ain't human if you loathe them. I am currently over the phase of whining on how skinny I should get.

Skin & bones is cool, but it is very tough to find nice fitting dress nor skirt ugghh!

I have no idea how to get to Jelapang Rd from town.

I only know its in Bukit Panjang + its not helping its the cousin's new house!

Thus I had to cab down from Woodlands & I directed the cab driver *beams to myself

I am an awesome navigator like that thanks! <:

Omg babyboy is so kiyuutt! Take a look at those teeth (!!!!)

The monday started of as a bubble burster.

But surprisingly, it progresses off well, yay! Gotta love days like this

Mr NUM boy forgot he has work after all the last minute plans that we did.

Tsktsk.

Thus we sat down over lunch for 2 hours & chatted over random topics.

Bowling + kite flying again this week before I disappear for 2 weeks.

EXCITED MUCH <: <:

Back to the WWSS this wednesday.

I ditched them on saturday cause my body was aching real badly & there is no way I can coach the juniors.

I haven't been hearing positive reviews about them, I hope this wednesday doesn't kill me.

I shall go all out in helping them cause I am not ready to see this crumble.

Let's pray that my patience level is that of 110%.

Ummm.. 5 more days!

I shall enjoy this whole week before I go into hibernation/disappearing mode.

I would be lying if I say I'm not afraid, but I'm certain over the fact that I will pull through me.

GO ME!

But its upsetting to know that the secondary school buddy isn't caring as much as the TRCC/RP peeps

I shall zip up because I myself, refuse to open up.

I love each & every TRCC people out there. You mean the world to me, I promise you I will come out better & stronger!
(:

Omg Jannah & her instant brownie misconception can kill me.

That lady is way too cute & funny, cannot stand this ^^

LOL

2010-02-28T23:49:00.003+08:00

I was reading babygirl's blog & I saw this:

"Our Makcik Mai Cougar nak belajar masak for all her young toyboys!"

Hahaha omg what! CUTE MUCH! <:

But I assure you people I is not a cougar.

Them young boys like me too, awwww.

Kthxbye!

Uh huh.

True that.

1 more week.

2010-02-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

One more week!

Let's hope I come out of it alive, stronger & healthier

Psychologically, I must must must tell myself to be strong & wake up.

Everyone that's close to me believe I will make it!

Esp the TRCC gang, awww I feel so loved

(;

(just a snippet from one of the staff)

Hi MAi

10:46pmMaizura

hi mr phang!

10:46pmPhang

Read yr email abt your op. Don't worry about us, take care, ok?

10:47pmMaizura

yeap okayy. will take care.

thanks

SHL DSLM; Strategic Sports Development

2010-02-24T01:40:00.002+08:00

Do you miss us?

I do.

2010-02-22T13:25:00.002+08:00

Its frustrating how I get annoyed so easily.

Its frustrating how I am so indecisive in what I want.

Its frustrating how my drive and determination towards something isn't as powerful as the rest.

If I remain this way, I can forget about working before school (hopefully) starts

>:(

I honestly feel I am capable & competent.

Yes I am, I know I can.

So what am I waiting for? Chances do not drop on me. I chase after them.

You know it upsets me when other view others more competent as me just because they are seen more often with the student body.

Ugghh. By the time I finish contemplating, they've already gotten someone better.

The thing is, I really want this.

Kayyy, I should shut up already, kthxbye!

2010-02-21T13:57:00.003+08:00

All of these are gonna be in random order.

Some are real overdue, but heck! I haven't been at this space for sucha long timeeeee.

Losing the drive to blog already

Blading @ ECP.

People watching + Hidayah's epic fall.

How cuteeeee <;

Oh yes! Meet the idiot that attemps to make me fall too many a times.

But yours truly is damn stable at this, thanks :D

CNY @ Patrick's.

Meowwwww. Meimei is damn adorable + fat now teehee.

I wish there's more alumni, but all is good still.

Viola & Violet!

The best family party (Y)

Party hats, raybans, polaroids, awesome posume food, dancing & screaming.. Mmmhmm what's there not to love & go crazyyyyy?

Omggggg I am craving for this real badly

Hi bestfweeeeeeeennnnn, I know you secretly love me ^^

Next week okay? I promise to be nicer to you

Pig out tuesdayyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Omnomnomnom!

Ice cube with Marcus!

Hi budddddyyyyy, I wasn't expecting myself to share so much with you.

Thank you for that & the treat (;

Chomp chomp with 1/4 of the class!

Gotta love the stingray!

On a totally different note..

My lip ulcer is annoying me but I am living with it, still!

Its amazing how I can conveniently bite myself & woke up the next day with ulcers that has pus & blood in it

>:(

I developed a love/hate relationship with the people over at LOS.

I think everyone deserves a chance & you have no right to exude favouritism, especially when all you ever do is to be overbearing.

But I'm glad I forged memorable friendships during the 1 week stint.

I wanna work at ___ still, but I am afraid of rejection

I still believe I have the potential. (sobsob x10)

I'm hungry now, kthxbyeeeee!

2010-02-16T01:18:00.003+08:00

M: (on fb) Omg hi! My ipod cable isn't for you to keep gong xi gong xi!

D: You know there's this thing called the sms. Why you so angsty?

M: Because everyone's annoying >:(

Pehhhhhhhhhhhhhh. My tolerance level is reducing rather ridiculously.

At the rate I'm going, no one would want to befriend nor marry me already.

Booohooo! What will happen to my marry at the age of 26 & get 10 kids plan?

Hahaha okay I should stop being as annoying as the rest.

SLEEP TIME FOR ME!

Goodnight, have fun kiddos! <;

(D is gonna visit me tomorrow, yay! I shall remove my very angsty+ annoying comment.)

2010-02-09T00:42:00.002+08:00

I think I've reached a point of indifference towards you & everything else about us.

It annoys me when in the eyes of many others(including yourself), I am the menacing one.

I personally feel that you will give two fucks about this if I mean this much to you.

Apparently you don't & I am washing my hands off this.

It takes two to tango, one to break the chain.

Friday's lesson was the best way to end my learning journey in RP!

(: I enjoyed it so much & I seriously look up to Mr Balwant Grewal.

The class too had a mad awesome time running around the block snapping as much memories as possible!

Yet again, I'm all ambivalent about leaving this school.

I hope as I move on to another level of learning, I get to experience something almost similar.

I too hope that I do not live with the regret of hoping I'll work harder and achieving greater things.

Afterall, we are all made for greater things!
:D

Hi raffy, thank you for hearing me out.

You may not read this cause not everyone is as stalkerish / scary as me & hidayah haha!
<:

I appreciate your thoughts & views on seeing things in two-three dimensional!

Hi hidayah, sayang you manymanymanymanymany

((:

SEOUL GARDEN BILA!?

2010-02-02T22:53:00.004+08:00

Its been more than 12 hours, but I am still effing mad & upset over A.Low's comment!

How could you say I am perpetually oblivious in class & is a disappointment as a final year student since I show zero level of seriousness.

You only taught me once (for barely 4hours), how can that be a representative view of my whole interest in Strategic Sports Development Module!?

That was blatantly put across & I do not like the idea of it.

This perpetually oblivious student of yours is an A grade student.

She ace both class performance & UTs.

Shame on you, shame on you.

I would gladly accept your comment if you had noticed my stagnant performance & disinterest in this module for a period of time.

But no, you were only present ONCE & that does not give you the right to label me that way!

I think education has more than just this.

I am confident in front of a large crowd, I have (relatively) good people skill & most importantly, I am not as judgemental as you!

Angsty things aside...

I am a typical kiasu Singaporean.

I just signed up for 4 jobs! Yes not kidding you!

My mom will screw the hell out of me if she were to find out I am neglecting my pursuing of further studies over work.

But 1 year wouldn't hurt, yes?

One more week before the official end of my tertiary education.

I am ambivalent about this.

I will miss what SHL has provided me.

I appreciate how it has widen my perspective towards the Singapore sports industry.

I will miss TRCC, I do not want to leave that place

It has provided me with so much (learning & experiential) opportunities that I will keep for life.

It has also provided me with a group of wonderful people.

The only regret I have, is not studying hard enough back then in year 1

That mistake cost me my GPA. It may cost me my future educational options too.

I opted myself out of the TRCC Adelaide trip.

Long story & I am kinda regretful over my decision.

(but at least Zaini promise me a kangaroo back home lol)

But come mid march, I am free to do anything.

You stupid heart, why must you complicate only at this juncture!?

Enough ramblings already.

I shall be a good girl & read up on my FYP Lit.Review!

I shall ace tomorrow's presentation.

It brought me too much angst and heartbreak.

I shall kill you tomorrow, woots woots!

Have a great week ahead people!
(;

hidayah!

2010-02-02T13:22:00.004+08:00

Teehee.

Cute like a chimpanzee :D :D

KBSM

2010-01-31T13:01:00.004+08:00

KBSM; I will never trade you for anything else in the world.

We are all equally baffled, disappointed & upset.

But so long as there's room for forgiveness, everything else is secondary.

To the dearest girl(I know we are no longer as close as compared to the childhood days),

I hope you can pull through this darkest part of your life.

I love you still, cousin!

Ultimately, I hope you'll find back that strength & happiness!

2010-01-29T00:34:00.002+08:00

"It's funny how we always find ourselves wanting to run back to the ones we used to love, for some reason, thinking it would work out differently the second time"

- runaway train

Honey, the truth hurts

dental woes

2010-01-27T01:56:00.002+08:00

For the first time in 9 months I actually hate dental

))):

OMG HATE IT TO THE MAX!

Dr Audrey tortured me so badly that I flinched (too many a time) & cried!

YES OMG CRYBABY TIMES TEN PLEASEEEEE
))):

But it was so bad, I had no other avenue.

Dr Audrey was surprised at my sudden drop in threshold level cause usually I am very calm about it & has no complaints.

Sigh!

Beauty has a price to pay, but today was too much okay!
>:(

2010-01-25T12:48:00.000+08:00

I miss my favourite boys

2010-01-24T20:46:00.003+08:00

Mom just warned me against buying anymore clothes cause my wardrobe's bursting!

But why is it that I always have to worry on what to wear to school?

Weird much, hmmmm.

I am mega broke right now.

No idea what the hell I spent on

I wanna head down Haji to buy a dress!

Hidayah wants to keep a sotong as a pet!
HAHAHAHA creativity at its best, me likeyy!
:D

Nasi Lemak for 2 consecutive mornings.

Confirm I will grow into a fat blob

+ the house has no home cooked food for the past one week or so!

+ the mom didn't stock on any junk for me to snack on

Oh oh I smell politics in KBSM.

Shan't elaborate cause I actually know nuts about it.

2010-01-24T11:41:00.004+08:00

You girls were right.

By agreeing, I am instilling hope for the other party.

By agreeing, I am allowing mouths to spatter.

By agreeing, I am discovering how boys are able to bitch & gossip to their highest ability. (ugghh thinking about it makes me so mad. how about you direct the attention into honing your skills!)

But then again..

I love the attention.

I am amiable by nature, I see nothing wrong with that.

My intentions are clear, my conscious is free.

How now brown cow?
):

p/s: babygirl & hidayah, I am not upset at you. never were okay? (: love you tons

dance

2010-01-21T23:19:00.003+08:00

Ohmygollygoodness!

Dance was wicked awesome yet tiring!

I found out that its a weakness that I can never ever nail!
):

2 hours of technique felt like forever, I wanted to die cause everything was so fast paced!

& I've never stretched nor twirl (super uglily may I add) so much in my entire life!

Thanks to Elle for she is so patient & sweet, yay!
(:

Hi Nat A & Cheeyang, hope today didn't kill you!
<: <:

& Cheeyang, you didn't laugh at me yay yay!

Epic moment of the day: Running for the seat at KFC!

HAHAHA IN YOUR FACE TWO UGLY GIRLS! Stupid bitch thought I couldn't see what she commented. I ain't stupid I could read your lips haa!

Next friday shall be as awesome as this!

Okay time to hibernate & let my body rest cause it is falling apart real soon!

Tomorrow I shall walk like a penguin!

Byeeee all! <:

2010-01-20T14:57:00.003+08:00

Of all the things we never thought we could be says:

not to bad, i guess?

haha

awesomely awesome. says:

yeah so?

i mean we're going to school to learn aren't we

haha

to get better at it..

Well, true that!

But do you think they care?

All they want is seeing you up there, before taking you in. So that they can further stretch that potential of yours!

I am definitely far from being up there, so my dreams is already 50% shattered
);

I hate how this rigid education system is taking its toll on me.

My academic inclination may only be average, but I have so much more skills & experience!

But does it matter? No it doesn't! No one gives two fuck about it, unless..

a) ~~I am poor~~ Struggling financially. Beneficiaries sees the potential in me & decided to help me out

b) I am thick skinned enough to head down the school & prove my worth! But then again, how many of them even bother?

2010-01-18T12:14:00.004+08:00

Weewoos!

I'm so glad fyp is gonna be over real soon!

I've never edited a report so much in my entire life!

& neither have there been a drive to continue doing it till 5am!

I'm impressed with myself , pleaseeeeeeee!

Time to party like a rockstar now ^^

Oh tongseng has gross food, where do all the rave come from?

Hi bestfriend, we are never eating there again even if the noises from our stomach is good enough to kill!

& thank you for waiting for over an hour, you is ze besssssssssssstt :D

But I hate your surprise though it comes in handy >: >:

OhhhhhMmmmmmGeeeeee!

The dress is fucking hot, I want!!

+ I am digging her accessories!

This whole image is; To.Die.For.

2010-01-15T19:45:00.004+08:00

Aiman thinks he is a joke.

"Eh you see ah. Its not like my report isn't complete. It is just missing a toe, fingers, some patches of hair. In essence, its a body. No meh? True what! Ahh like frankenstein like that"

Omg whuttttt!

I am laughing like mad with Lynnette now!

What an analogy tsktsk.

Oh meet lynnette!

M: Huhhhhhhhhhh

L: Why are you moaning!

M: That is not moaning damn it! That's whining or sighing

Hahaha, kill me naoooooooo!

2010-01-15T01:35:00.003+08:00

UGGGH OMG I WANT TO KILL W!

>:( x104474646

STUPID BOY OMG UGGGH!

Edit at 520pm//

Omg its been barely a week & we're fighting

Wtf seriously wtf! Its not even my fault.

Ggrrrrrrrr hidayah aku nak bunuh diri uh gini

)):

2010-01-08T23:59:00.002+08:00

Exhausted to my bones!

I can just die right here right now

& my chest was hurting so badly in the morning, I thought that was gonna be the end of me. No kidding!

School hasn't been fantastic & I wouldn't say the cliche; School sucks.
Cause its only the two entities that drain us; Modules & FYP.

Please for goodness sake, figure out that fine line / grey matter!

Oh my test & daily grades are disappointing rather.

What's new, Ikr! But I can't seem to stop ranting cause my efforts never ever bear fantastic results!

Okay sleep time!

Open house + people watching & FYP tomorrow!

One more week, ohmyfuckinggod, not funny at all
>:

Thank god for D, major lifesaver yay me (+the team) love youuuuu!

2010-01-04T22:04:00.002+08:00

HI ALL!
:D Okay I'm very hyper right at this moment!
Please don't mind me.
Anyway, after Graduation I want to:
- Dance (shut up, I am never too old for this)
- Travel to Europe (daddy still owes me one)
- Pick up fencing again
- Shop till I hyperventilate
- Redecorate my room
- Fly up Abg Fahmy's plane (!!!!!!!!!)

But before all this, I need to go all out for this final push.
I must graduate, I need to enter a university.
No offence, but I don't wish to enter SIM.
): All my life, I've been entering mediocre schools & it is not something I am proud of.
If the cousins (even my sister!) can be part of established institutions, why can't I?
-
When I grow up, I want two kids.
I want them to get the best education any kid can dream of.
Have opportunities to learn & try something different.
It doesn't matter if they are jack of all trades, master of none. At least they get to try their hands on it. A skill can never die off, it will just rust.
This is an inspiration from Aunty Rose family! (although now the boys are master of one acitivity)
I wanna live in a cluster housing property, just like Aunt Shikin's The Shaughnessy!
I want my husband to listen & allow me to make decisions as well.
He must love me even when I am at the peak of my angsty & grouchy self.
-
All too frivolous & pretentious?
I don't think so! & you people need to stop saying: Aiyah your dad will sponsor.
20 years down the road, he wouldn't! Hello, money don't roll in for him for like eternity!
But I will still remain a princess
:D

school woes on nye, fml

2009-12-31T01:46:00.003+08:00

I am the new liaaaannn in the house, sorry!

Wahlaoooo, another B grade to my Leisure Issues & Organization UT.

& what's the best thing? I am 0.5 marks away from a B+, it ALWAYS happen!

What the pangsaiiiiiiiii! Shouldn't have been such an itchy brat & open up my leo website

I hope Monday's Consumer Psych 's UT is a breeze.

Cause I am kinda liking the previous grade ^^

It makes the stupid & hopeless me, feel more confident & smart.

2009-12-29T00:21:00.002+08:00

Need to snap snap snap out of this holiday mood!
UTs are approaching & FYP report submission is in aproximately 2 weeks!
Omfggg, you kidding me? The team is still screwed >;(
I can rant & throw my anger around, like foreverrrrrrr!
Uggghh still hating the company, still cannot accept the fact organizations have zero sense of urgency!
-
Topshop sales are up but noooo I haven't been getting anything.
Life sucks when 1) Natasha is not in Singapore to go mad with me at Topshop 2) My bank account is ridiculously depleting 3) I made a vow to sworn off Topshop for the next few mths!
-
Happy pictures, to make up for my never ending angsty self.

Omffffggg, the butterscotch popcorn is mad awesomeeeee!
I could have ate one whole box for myself, if not for Dean teeheeeeeee.
But eh I have butter (pun intended) fingers, I kept dropping them ;x
-
Have a blissful marriage Mumu!

First ever marriage to be held over at TRCC, I think its kinda amazing.

If there's one thing I never regret about RP, is being part of the TRCC Family!
Awesome bunch & I learnt alot, seriously A-L-O-T!
I get to gain experience many others don't have the chance.
-
3 days was spent over at Grandma's!
Never watched that much movies in my entire life, I swearrrr.
But I am loving it still.
& oh what started of as an intention between me & the aunt to head down Cold Storage to get tomatoe ketchup & mayonnaise, kills us with $50++ worth of loots!
45 minutes = $100++ spent. (cause we went to Prima Deli as well) Crazy please!
It could have been worst but abang kept going: Ok ibu, cukup cukup.
-
I am gonna end this off abruptly.
Tired + lazy.
Fyp tomorrow, busy day as well.
Miss me & have an awesome new year's eve!
(;

2009-12-25T16:23:00.003+08:00

I need to keep telling myself that until I am free from this messy state.

& oh boy, it doesn't matter if you say: "thanks for fetching her", "sorry for not being able to pick you up, hope you are feeling much better". Cause you know why?

It hurts all the same & I had to trouble more than one instead!

omg wtf

2009-12-21T23:13:00.004+08:00

(click to enlarge to read)
To the idiot that did this search, you think my blog is a potential porn site!?

Nevertheless, it got me laughing real hard.

It amaze me how popularity can stretch all odds, in the weirdest ways you can think of.

Not bad not bad haha, I'm ms fofularrrrrrrr@89 afterall

2009-12-19T01:34:00.003+08:00

(hp always ringing, hands always on the phone)

Mom: Ehhh your phone bising (noisy) lah. You just got home half hour ago & the house so bising!

M: Hahah sorry your daughter busy & popular.

Mom: Who you messaging? Reach home already what, see your cousins, friends one whole day not enough ke.

M: Sorry I am extremely popular. I messaging 3 boys at one go ^^^^

Mom: Malas aku nak layan, go sleep (I am so lazy to entertain you already)

Hahah awww my mommy is annoyingly cute.

But eh lesson learn, my phone is on silent mode now, but the texting has stopped!

Productive day.

FYP readings, wah I'm so impressed with myself!

Visited the granny, chatted with the cousin.

Met a friend, watched new moon (hahah sorry we slow like that) & I wanted to barf cause its mtfk cheesy.

It took me 5 mins to get 2 basics from 313@Somerset.

New record uh huh. Its only one floor may I add, the crowd was killing me.

10pm already still so many people, what is this!

I hate FYP.

I hate incompetent companies.

I hate people who lack the sense of urgency.

I had douchebags that ignore my mesages, fuck you okay.

You think you very popular is it!? I texted you because the team needs to progress with your help. No camp = no results = how the fuck we carry on?

I want to kill myself naaaaaaaaaooooo.

>:(

lynnette yeo!

2009-12-16T23:17:00.002+08:00

"Hi mai, I bought you an annoyingly cute elmo head keyring for christmas! Just in case anyone gets it for you, I was firrsssssttttt! Firsssssstt okayyy!"

Hahahah omg mad funny mad funny, I was practically bursting into laughters!

Hi Lynnette, although you always make me break out into spastic laughters with your silly antics & annoy me cause you always don't finish your food, THANK YOU OKAY!

(: Why so sweet one? Haha kiddingggg!

Oh I ran fyp errands today & it makes me wonder, why am I doing so much?

No offence, but I seem to be doing everything & except for one, no one else bothers to ask if all is fine

What ever happen to team effort?

2009-12-15T15:41:00.003+08:00

Since I have quite alot of time before 7pm, I might as well keep alive this space.

But before that, 3 weeks holiday is hereee!

Yeaaaaaah baby, you have no idea how elated I am.

School has been so thought and energy draining, plus FYP is sucking up my every nerve!

Abg Gaifil's Wedding!

Marsiling Rd.

& Omg the food is so damn delish and that makes me feel alot of better.

I have something against wedding that provides gross food, like hello, what are you thinking?

You should never compromise cost over the comfort of your guest.

Maternal Side

Ohana means family. Oh please pardon my gross face + hair. I was damn grumpy before that cause I fought with mom

Omg fondue(!!!!!!!)

This is awesome x10!

Paternal Side; Kak Sri's Wedding!

Bukit Panjang.

Once again, mad awesome delish food & everyone looked gorgeous!

But the bad thing is, on saturday I ate 7 times, Sunday I ate 4 times

))): Kill me naoooooo, its not a wonder I gained 3kg yes?

(Saturday - Solemnization)

Its not always you get to see us in tudungs.

But it didn't last anyway, like 3 hours?

Daddy's little girl teehee

Omg I took more than an hour to do up this entry.

Second part of the wedding will be continued tomorrow or something.

& my kfc delivery is here!

Mad hungry now & how I wish Popeye's or Arnold do home delivery!

Their food beats kfc hands down, but oh well it can't be helped that I'm craving for chicken right now

)):

I cannot wait to shop over at F21 313@Somerset!

4 fucking levels, how to resist you tell me? Plus some stuffs are way cheaper than Wisma Atria.

Hi management of Wisma, you may close down your outlet :D

2009-12-12T21:09:00.002+08:00

Mom: Ehh I've always wanted to ask, who gave you this huge elmo?

M: Huh? Ape ni, so random

Mom: Putri eh? Since she gave you the small one

M: Errr no, my ex boyfriend.

Mom: Which one?

Now now now, please tell me why my mom is strangely cute today?

+ she makes it sound like i have 38464386363 ex boyfriends.

+ she ask me shocking question of the century.

Oh aren't you glad I'm home on a saturday night?

Home early, may I add.

& where's my parents!?

I BADLY WANT TO EAT!

*sulks

omfg rofl whutttt!

2009-12-07T00:03:00.004+08:00

The conversation that bewildered me, vengs, rawr.

I'm sorry, but I just have to share it with everyone else.

Its mtfk funny please. To us at least.

Let's name her M; M for Miang.

M: Hi sorry, I added the wrong person.

X: Oh nvm its alright.

(conversation goes on)

M: Oh btw are you lesbian or bisexual?

X: So what you did tonight till its so late?

M: I went to Play. Thought I told you that just now?

X: Oh yea, sorry I forgot. My memory size recently is that of a pea size.

M: Ohhh, small just like my nipples. They are sexy btw.

I know righttttt.

Whuttttttt!?

The conversation doesn't end there btw.

I shall be a meanie & talk to her(but rawr needs to come to my rescue), reusing her sentences, just to see if she feel the pinch.

Oooh cheap thrill!

2009-12-04T11:02:00.002+08:00

What a draggy week.

I cannot wait for it to end.

& I cannot wait to head down to the various flea markets tomorrow.

Its upsetting to know that you're distancing from us.

If he is the source of the problem, I suggest you do something about it.

My maid wore my havaianas out to the market!

>:(

Yes, without my permission may I add.

I don't know which is worst, having Cheeyang's maid eat up his macaroons or my maid wearing my slippers out.

& Oh I want to chain up her legs soon cause she keeps trespassing into my space while she sleeps!

I'm a brokekid@89.

I am abstaining from Topshop for the time being.

Flea market & salvation army to the rescue

I'll feast you with photos soon.

Miss me not!

2009-11-29T12:02:00.004+08:00

Somebody please enlighten me on how to talk to the new maid.

We're living in two different world.

Major awkward moment when she's in my room

Edit 740PM//

You infuriate me so much that I wonder how you handle that ego of yours..

Geez, what are you becoming?

2009-11-23T01:02:00.003+08:00

Yours truly gained 3kg

Mad awesome delish dinner with Natasha & Abang Ijet!

We've decided to do this more often.

& we realized our family tree is damn complex & derive at a conclusion to draw one up!

& Natasha revealed her silly answer for last year's Geog paper. Thank god that silly answer didn't risk her of losing that A1.

Dental tomorrow at such an insane timing; 1030am.

Call me weird, I love dental appointments!

But I hate early mornings & to top it off, going alone

& I think I should proposed for D. Audrey to have more colour options! Like more striking ones!

Dean; Chin up chin up!

You shouldn't always feed that hunger for perfection of yours.

& its very tough to be transparent about things, its even tougher to deal with the truth.